STEALTH CRUISING NO.1

One late late night the BF contacts an Online guy...

25.Nov. - 02:28:16

“BF” : --------Sexy!
ONLINE-GUY : Thanks. What are you looking for
“BF” :-------- Long sex sessions. Top and more stamina then most. :-)
ONLINE-GUY :How long can you fuck for? :-)
“BF” : --------it depends, of course. I have fucked for 5 hours with only
little breaks... but that was special :-))) wanna try?! up for it and horny (and don't need to work until 16:00 tomorrow)... :-)))
ONLINE-GUY : have any more pics?
“BF” : --------No nude-pics, sorry ;-) L and nice shape. you can see for yourself if you like- where in town are you?
ONLINE-GUY :staying at a friends place. are you available often? what are you into?
“BF” :--------if you are near, you could come over. live near görlitzer bahnhof underground (on line 1)
ONLINE-GUY : sounds enticing... a 5hour fuck! what are you into? you have a partner? how much is a taxi from Wilmersdorf
“BF” : --------"just sex" = I top, meaning I rim, kiss, and fuck "nasty sm sex" = I get meaner. I have a partner, I am loyal to him, and thats why I am not discussing more about that... wilmersdorf? what underground-area? then I can tell approx..-)))
ONLINE-GUY :I think the station is called wilmerdorfer- i have to look on the map- lucky guy gets fucked for 5hours 3 is my max. I need advice from him (or you) LOL
“BF” :--------I would guess it would be around 15-20 euros. listen, I think we could have fun tonight, so I will make you an offer: you pay the cab this way, and I will give you some money for the way home (if necessary at all... LOL). how about that? ;-)))
ONLINE-GUY :That sounds like an offer from a very hard cock :-) cash is not a problem. Let me look on my map (very tired) where would I go again?
“BF” :--------section of town is called "kreuzberg", that is east from you. find underground line 1. there, its station "görlitzer bahnhof". live in a street called eisenbahnstrasse (railwaystreet).
ONLINE-GUY :what adress do i give the cab driver? are you up also for later in the week?
“BF” :--------I am not in berlin wed-fri. but back saturday - eisenbahnstrasse 32. name is hausknecht. just tell me if you wanna come over :-)
ONLINE-GUY : I am horny as hell but I need to be nice to host FIRST but by the time youre back I fly out of town lets reconnect when I'm around again- if you think you'd like this black butt around you cock?
“BF” : --------sure I want your butt - horny as hell too! so, what is keeping you?!?
ONLINE-GUY : I always need to be a good guest first and a horny tourist second.I can almost feel you fucking me now
“BF” : --------sure you do. but - I don't do sex chats with people I have never fucked to many wankers around, sure you understand - and talk does not do it for me, only ass muscles I can feel on my cock - so, let me know when you are in town again. I work tomorrow from 16:00 - 18:00, so might be available before/after that and come back friday night. goodnight sexy!
ONLINE-GUY : Ok mr.cock in my muscle ass- :-) lets try again and then I can be on your have fucked list :-)
Tuesday wont work- We'll make it happen. good night I am getting offline otherwise I'll cum all over my host's computer
“BF” : --------I just don't like cybersex without KNOWING I can really fuck this guy. that turns me mad. - let me know when you are back in berlin?! good night!

25.Nov. - 03:46:57

This is a rather painful image for me. It represents perhaps the second significant moment for me in my relation with the BF. We had just spent a holiday week with his family and upon returning to Berlin he had a pre-arranged/or quickly negotiated sexdate appointment with another person, "O". A particularly hurtful event when our own sexual physicality was questionably absent. "O" is actually a nice guy and has a special appeal to the BF not just because he is Black but particularly because he claims to be a "Bottom Only" (perhaps with the ability to be fucked for 5 hours). It occurs to me in retrospect that perhaps they may be better suited to be paired as a couple and makes me deeply question all the choices, mine as well, that have been made. In part I am angered that we are not sharing our sexuality in tandem and that this pleasant young man was not simply shared for example like THIS(*with condoms of course). I am in no way adversed to getting kinky "together"- but the exclusivity of seperate sex lives strikes me as not why couples have relationships.
Each year as we approach Christmas- New years and the BFs birthday, I am struck with a certain cold distance because of this incident...which I have tried to trivialize but is in fact disruptive.